On to part 2 of Catalyst for Change…
Well, after the chest pain I felt when Mike, Gavin and I were walking the dogs at the park, somewhere in my consciousness there was concern. I wasn’t thinking about it actively but it must have been there because otherwise why would I do what I did next.
We went for the walk in the morning. All day I was feeling discomfort and breathlessness. Not overly so. Not where I would grab my chest. But yes, I felt something.
Finally, that evening when everyone was there: Mike, Gavin, Joe, his wife Min and of course the dogs, I went up to the room we were staying in to lie down. Joe was doing his homework, he went back to school to get an engineering degree and was always swamped in school work. Gavin was playing games on the computer. Mike was reading. Min was chillaxin after working all day. I laid on the bed thinking, was something wrong, should I do something, what was there to do. Finally, I called Mike and Joe into the room. I told them about how I was feeling.
“Maybe we should cut the trip early and head back home,” Mike said.
“Whoa, that means you think this is something. If this is something should I be driving 1,000 miles.”
“No, Mom, you shouldn’t. You should go to the emergency room.”
“I don’t know.” I looked over at Mike. He looked overwhelmed.
“Mom, if it is something then you don’t want to be in the middle of nowhere and have to find a hospital.”
“That’s true,” Mike said.
“Listen why don’t I take you to the hospital now. Get it checked out. If its nothing then you will have peace of mind.”
“Yeah, okay.” I looked at Mike again. He was nodding.
“Where would you like to go. There is a hospital up the street. It will take us about 10 minutes. Or there is a heart hospital about a half hour away.”
I thought a minute. “Let’s go to the one close by. I’m sure it is nothing and then we don’t have to be driving so far.”
“I’ll go tell Min.”
Joe turned and hurried out of the room. I wanted to reach out and grab him back. Tell him maybe it was all a mistake. Maybe I shouldn’t go.